I'm Sorry For Not Being Sorry

I'm sorry for staring.
I'm sorry for caring.
I'm sorry for ever telling you how I feel.
I'm sorry thinking about you during every meal.
I'm sorry that you lied.
I'm sorry that I cried.
I'm sorry for annoying you with a text.
I'm sorry for wondering what comes next.
I'm sorry calling you that one day.
I'm sorry for smiling at you when you look the other way.
I'm sorry for reminiscing.
I'm sorry for all the kissing.
I'm sorry that this love is so rare.
I'm sorry for always being there.

I can't help loving you. If I could choose a love, it definitely wouldn't be you. But you make me smile and you make me laugh. I've never been able to just let go and give someone my all. You make it so easy, you don't even know. You say it's so complicated, but that's all in your head. I don't know what it is, but it's bumming me out. It would be so fun, it would be so free. I never want to be away from you, you're just so special. I can't believe you don't see how you are so beautiful. You're SO beautiful. You know I think so. There's no doubt in my head that you're not the one. The one guy who can take it all away. All the stress and hate and hurt. You make me feel special and happy. I can't help it. I wish I could apologize for it all. All the words we've exchanged. I wish I didn't mean it, but I do. I'm sorry... but I'm not sorry. I can't help loving you.

~ Lia Rose 3/25/13